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The Big “When” Question

(Warning: this post is kind of long and kind of personal. And by “kind of” I mean extremely.)

As a girl (and I apologize because that’s all the experience I’ve got) it seems like your life is series of when‘s.

When do you get your license so you can drive us to the mall??

When do you turn 21 so we can go meet boys????

When is he going to pop the question?

When‘s the big day??

aren't we adorable?

And while these questions all warrant multiple question marks, they have all been reasonably simple to answer, or at least provide rough timelines. Then came the other question that people start asking, basically the minute you get back from your honeymoon…

When are you going to have a baby?

This one. This one wasn’t so easy to answer. First, we were never in a hurry. As I’ve explained before on this blog, we are kind of selfish people who are 100% aware of the fact that we like our lives how they are. We like TV, going to dinner and eating at the bar, laying around on Sundays watching football and HBO and leaning giant mirrors against walls without worrying someone will pull it over on top of themselves. He likes his xbox  (some days I think more than me) but hey, I’ve got my vices. Y’all know how I feel about wine. But as the first few years of wedded bliss passed by, I started getting that dull ache in my belly as I saw friends, family, hell even strangers, snuggling and kissing on their own tiny little humans that they created together. I would catch myself inhaling that sweet baby smell just a few seconds longer. Smiling the widest of smiles when they would wrap their little hands around my finger. Feeling like I swallowed the sun when my nephews would hug me and say “I love you”. So with some hesitation and eventually mutual agreement, we decided to make a baby.

…Two years ago.

…Radio silence.

Like I’m sure many other women have, I always had this feeling I would never be able to have children, long before I ever started even wanting them. Yes, I am known to be a bit of a worrier/hypochondriac/crazy person, so this was nothing out of the ordinary. So as months went by, boxes and boxes of pregnancy tests and ovulation kits ninja kicked our bank account (that shit is expensive), I read every “TTC” (Trying to Conceive) forum I could find, I tried every method of charting and I took every supplement I read about to try and calm my fears and get some results. Still. Nothing. Then finally after about a year and a half, and kind of an “off” cycle, I went to see a fertility doctor, completely ready to accept my fate as fertility impaired.

Thank God.

Not only did I feel better just talking to someone, but as we started charting my cycle with their preferred method (NaPro in case you’re interested), things started to finally make sense. Like the fact that I had horrific, debilitating cramps randomly, almost 20 days out of the month. Or that I had excruciating pain from exercise and other activities that should not cause pain. A month of blood tests every other day showed my hormones were jank, and I was a ball of stress because of it. An earlier test I’d had done when we started this process showed blockage in both of my tubes (yay!) so as you can imagine, that puts a wrench in things. And as we continued to navigate through each month, there was a reoccurring theme that continued to come up with my fertility nurse, and certainly explained a lot of what I was dealing with. Endometriosis.

To be continued…

 

 

 


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Exciting Pupdate: Meet Ace

Hi internet friends! How we doing?

I know its been a while since my last post, and I’ve already failed at blogging more since I gave my whole “I’m going to get back into it, SWEARSIES!” proclamation a few months ago, but you all know how it goes. Also since I decided I wanted to stick to more of a “lifestyle” platform and not keep pretending like I was cooking interesting new shit all the time, its been a challenge to just SIT and TYPE. I have like 20 posts waiting inside my brain to spill out onto my keyboard, some fun, some more serious, but all waiting to be shared. So hopefully now that I’ll be getting a break from all the traveling I was doing, I can try and put them together. (I know, wahhh, poor me.)

ANYWAYS. The real reason for this exciting post today is that after a year + of whining, pleading and attempted bribing, Brandon finally caved and we got another dog!

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Meet Ace!

I know. He is the shit.

The story of how we got him is a little long-winded and a touch Jerry Springer. We actually were told they changed their minds the night before we were supposed to get him (the first time). So we went to Colorado brokenhearted and with me convinced that we would never-ever-ever get another dog. But as a few people predicted, they changed their minds again, and after much debate, we decided to give it another go. Insert huge heart emoji.

About Ace:

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He is an Australian shepherd/boxer mix,  is about 9 months old and 100% handsome. He enjoys gnawing on tables, books, picture frames and his brother Mac’s face, as well as long walks so he can pull on the leash until your arms almost fall off. (We are actually considering hiring an in-home trainer to help with some of the tougher behavior issues. He is VERY sweet but has pretty much zero training prior to us adopting him.) So any good/bad experiences or thoughts on that would be welcomed!

Overall he is a great addition to our little “Wolfe pack” and him and Mac are best bros. I will say that this has definitely made me grateful that we haven’t been blessed with a tiny human yet, because sweet baby Jesus, it’s a lot of work having a new pup.

So that’s the news, friends, expect an influx of pics and twitter rants….you’ve been warned.

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“I’ll share my home but I’ll never share my sticks.”


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A Few Things Friday

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Never have I ever been so excited for a long weekend. And even though we do have quite a few events going on this weekend, the number one priority for me is sleeping and catching up on all my stories. That being said, it’s been some time since my last AFTF so I thought I’d pop in for a quick brain dump of what’s been going on in Jess World!

1. I FINALLY read a book that I really, truly loved. My mother-in-law suggested it to me and she was so spot on. It was Eleanor & Park, and I read it in two days. It’s a story about young love and being awkward and all the things I love to get lost in when reading a book. Hence my plan to someday author a YA novel, many of which I’ve started, and none have I finished. But after reading this I’m kind of inspired to write again, so we shall see how long that lasts. Anyways, if you haven’t read it yet and are looking for a good “summer read”, I couldn’t recommend it higher.

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2. I just got back from Boise, Idaho, and am absolutely in love with that city. Not only was it insanely beautiful, but super clean with lots of great little shops and restaurants. It’s so thrilling to me to be that close to these huge, rolling mountains. Kind of makes me want to get like 4 more dogs and only wear cargo pants. Of course at one point I found myself wandering into a little boutiquey shop that I passed by and absolutely had to go in, and after about a minute I realized it was an Anthropologie. (Like a moth to a flame.) We also had an amazing dinner at a restaurant called Bardenay, where they distill their own vodka and gin, and make one hell of a drink. Like this one, they call “Basil Instinct”:

Basil Instinct via BardenayOr as I referred to it on Instagram, “boozy basil”.  Hello, lover.

3. Speaking of dogs, we were actually supposed to get one a few weeks ago, but the family who was giving the little guy up changed their minds at the last minute and decided they wanted to keep him. It was really tough because I had to do a lot of convincing to Brandon that the poor pup needed us since they didn’t think they could care for him anymore. As I’m sure you can imagine, I was crushed when I got the email that he wasn’t coming to live with us, and moped around for a few days. But on the bright side, I think I’ve finally convinced Brandon that it’s time to get a new friend for the Macster, so hopefully when we get back from our trip to Denver we will be ready to add to the pack.

4. Lets talk really quickly about what I’m loving on the ol’ TV these days:

Silicon Valley: I am so pleasantly surprised by this show (not sure why it surprised me, I’ve always been a fan of Mike Judge, or at least a huge fan of Office Space). Maybe it’s because I sort of feel like since I work for a company that  does web design and social media that I sort of “get” their whole wonderfully nerdy world. (And I really do say that with full awareness of what a huge digital media nerd I am.)  But really I think it’s the awesome casting and hilarious writing that have kept me watching and telling everyone to do the same.

Orphan Black: After hearing about how much I would “love this show” a few times last year, I finally decided to give it a try and ended up power-watching it in about three days. So far the new season is just as great as the first, and I still cannot believe what a great actress Tatiana Maslaney is. If you need a great show to get into, definitely give this one a try.

And the obvious… Game of Thrones. Thank God Brandon is like a GOT encyclopedia, he remembers every single town, name and alliance, which is great for someone like me who has the attention span of a gnat. This season has been amazing so far (still can’t get over how great the “Purple Wedding” episode was) and I’m definitely on the edge of my seat waiting to see how shit goes down.

So that’s probably enough of my ramblings for today, I hope you guy all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend! Stay classy. xo

 

 

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