Hey kids, happy hump day!  Thanks for all your niceness yesterday regarding my first on-camera assignment, I’m glad you couldn’t see the fear burning in my eyes too badly.  What’s weird about it is that I used to be such a theater geek when I was younger, and never afraid of the spotlight.  Ok, I still like attention, but you catch my drift.

So onto the much alluded-to social experiment!  The idea was born a few weeks ago when I was watching another one of my favorite reality shows, Gallery Girls.  One of the girls (Liz) went to lunch with a childhood friend (Amy) who was desperately trying to rekindle their old friendship, of which Liz had zero interest in doing.  And instead of faking a smile and pretending like she was interested, only to later talk shit behind her back, she looked her right in the eyes and said something along the lines of “You know what?  I just don’t think it’s going to happen.  Not interested.”  It floored me.

Seriously.  People can do that?  Like, just be honest and not passive aggressive or afraid of just telling the truth?  I’ve blogged about my fears of confrontation and uncomfortable social situations before, so you guys know how I feel about it.  But for some reason this totally inspired me.  Why do we (I) waste so much time worrying about not rocking the boat, or faking interest in a situation/friendship/opportunity that I’m not actually interested in pursuing?  Life would be a hell of a lot easier if we all just told the truth (respectfully, of course, not in a malicious manner) and cut out some of the bs.

So… for the entire month of October, I am going to do just that.  I promise not to skirt around any issues, sugar-coat my feelings or respond passive aggressively.  It’s not going to be easy for me, as I tend to take the path of least resistance in  most situations.  I don’t want to come of “bitchy” or cold, so that will definitely be a struggle, but I feel like this will be a great opportunity for me to stop trying to feign interest in situations that I am just not interested in.

Professionally I will obviously keep this in check, as you know, I love my job and the whole “getting a paycheck” thing, and don’t want to put that in jeopardy.  But personally?  It’s on like Donkey Kong.

Updates to come… peace out!